I did not fall in love with my boyfriend.
Our relationship is not based on a predestined cosmic event over which I had no control. Instead, it is based on my daily choice to love this man— the man I chose out of many people that I could have chosen to love.
He is not some elusive soul mate, not some divine fulfillment, not some perfect step on the “Plan for My Life.”
We could choose to marry other people, or stay single, and have happy and full lives.
But now, today, I delight in my choice to love him.
I like it better this way, with the pressure on me and not on fate, cosmos, or divinity. I will not fall out of love, cannot fall out of love, because I willingly dived in and I’m choosing daily to stay in.
THIS is what I want to be.
“You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place. Like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again.”
"In ten years I’ll be older
Maybe living somewhere colder
Getting used to pavement under feet
And these will our the good old days
All the scenes that we’ll replay
Before we scattered in the breeze
It must be Carolina calling me
It must be Carolina in these things that follow me.”
"The God of the universe has not created more than 9 million species of animals, only to create two types of people. He has not created more than 315,000 species of plants, only to create "a man" and "a woman."
He has created, instead, billions of wildly unique individuals.
Billions of wildly unique individuals with souls and spirits so deep and complex that He says only He will ever know each of us fully.
Love is so full, so deep, so whole. And we must give and receive all of it, every piece, every part, every side, as our true selves allow.
We are people first. Gender second.
And that gender exists in order to create spectacular, infinite, unconstrained lives. Not to destroy them.”